“Instead, God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful.”
1 Corinthians 1:27
Let me tell y’all a quick story about GROWTH.
A few weeks ago, I was having a conversation with someone and she eventually asked me about the current challenges I’m facing.
I began to describe how difficult it was to be “confrontational”. I told her that I know it’s being demanded of me in this season, and, although it’s a struggle, it’s teaching me how to have mature conversations and not take offense. As I was explaining to the woman that I would typically describe myself as “non-confrontational” she immediately said “I can tell.”
GIRL?!?! Why would you say that??
I know she had no ill intent...allegedly....but when she uttered those words, I felt that old rush of insecurity masquerading itself as anger rise up. My thoughts were flooded with questions like…“Am I so insecure people can see it? Am I not speaking boldly and confidently? Should I stand up taller?”
Normally, I would try to prove to someone that I’m the opposite of the negative things they think of me. And even more self conscious thoughts would’ve popped in my head trying to discover ways to get them to change their mind.
As I felt myself going down this path, again, almost immediately I had an interrupting thought that eased my tension.
I stepped back and looked at where I was.
There I was in a room I had only dreamed of being. A room that a girl like me didn’t think she deserved to be in. Sure I’m not the most ‘confrontational’ person - but, there I was. I’m not the most eloquent and outgoing person either - but, here I am, chosen and loved by God.
It still blows me away that God sees the “unqualified” and the ones who don’t feel “enough” and chooses them to carry out His plans anyway. How loving and kind?
BUT, even though God knows we are enough, it’s up to us to believe and accept it. It’s up to us to know that the only person we have to be is who God created us to be. There’s no need to puff up and try to dominate a room. There’s no need to shrink just to fit in either. We’re free to be our best selves and know that we belong right where God placed us. Let’s walk into every room filled with the overflow of His love for us, in the power that He gifted us, and the confidence knowing that we are exactly who God called and created us to be, for such a time as this.
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